life is a road.

I'm laying here, in my babe's arms, blogging from my iPhone. He fell asleep a few minutes ago and so I'm trying to do this as quietly as possible, and without moving around too much. I wish I could curl up and go to sleep too but 1. my mind is racing and 2. I can't help but watch him sleep. His chest rises and falls with every breath, but his arms never loosen their grip around me. It makes me smile. If you look hard you'll even notice the corners of his lips curl up as if he's got his signature smart-ass smirk on. This makes me smile too.

I've been lying here for a while thinking of the sharp curves life has thrown in my direction in just these past couple months.
I'll be the first to admit that I was stubborn in the beginning. I thought I knew what was best for myself, and so I tried to clear my own path for my life. I fought through thickets of denial, excuses, and blame never really knowing that God had a paved road already ready for me to ride along. One step at a time I made my way back to His road as I accepted that God knew what was best for me and would lead me to it.
Laying here today leaves me with not a doubt that this is what I've been waiting for. I can't imagine anywhere or anyone better for myself.

Thinking about this paved road also leaves me wondering where we're headed next.
Will there be lots of twists and turns, or will it be a straight easy trip? Will the road be forked, or will it be one way? If it's forked, will our roads come together again, or will they lead each of us to different fates?
Justin and I are headed towards essentially huge parts of our lives. He's entering the United States Navy in less than a year, and I'll be finishing up high school and moving on to college, and possibly away from home. I don't really know what this entails for us as a couple. We've talked about being together while he's away for those four years, and we're determined to make it through but who's to say we're traveling on the same road hand in hand from here on out? And if we're not, will we fight again to make our own path...will we find a way to be together when he comes home from the Navy?
Will we even still believe we're best for each other?
Sometimes I feel as if we need to talk about it, but what is there to really say? Nobody knows just what the future holds so nobody knows how to prepare themselves.

It's exciting but I'm scared.