I thank God everytime I see this, because He gave me an extra portion of sentimentality and so I am able to find joy in the little things. EVERYTHING about this video is just so perfect. I want to live like this!
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Let me set the mood for you:
9:30 pm, speeding along I-75, windows down, wind sweeping through my hair, arm out the window, a smiley drawen in the fog on the front windshield, streetlights shining in, Justin driving, me in the passenger seat, Josh Gracin diverting his lyrics through the speakers at us. I was thinking through it all. Just thinking about life. Why is it that some people can find no reason at all to enjoy it? I touched the cross once, and then my fingers seemed magnatized to it. I couldn't put it down. I twirled it around in my fingers and just looked at it. I know I don't always come across as so religious, but not even I will deny the fact that we all have so much to live for. Nights like tonight really make me appreciative of everything I have. I'm generally quiet during them, and I like to take it all in. Thoughts start sprinting through my mind, a smile comes across my face,and the silence speaks to me itself soothing words. So much can be said without really any talking at all. I noticed a woman speeding past us... her eyes weary, arms locked at the elbow, tight grip on the wheel, and not even a trace of any smile. Why are some people in such a rush? I wish I could show them. I wish I could slow them down to see the world before it passes them by.
After more bad news from doctors ( STILL, after an entire year this is happening to me), I've spent all day crying. Even as I write this, my head pounds from thousands of lost tears. Maybe I'm dehydrated now from so much water loss, haha. Let it be known that I appreciate life. Even with everything I've been through. Even with everything I continue to struggle with. I won't lie, tears happen. It's not letting them get the best of you thats the big concern. I swear to you, no matter how bad things ever get... I will always find time in life to laugh. Jokes, laughter, and friends have been what it's taken to help me hold myself together lately. My mom stopped me today, and pointed out that she's noticed a lot of her in me just since I've started growing up. She told me I'm stronger than I realize, and that little things I do, or the way I make jokes about situations to lighten the mood is a quality she's noticed in me only recently. That is probably the highest compliment you can give me, a comparison to my mother.
To be 110% honest, I idol her. She is probably the hardest working woman you will ever meet. She's motivated, she's tough, she's sarcastic, she's HILARIOUS. She grew up with 3 brothers, and a father that beat the shit out of them if they did anything wrong. Moved out at 16, chased off a guy robbing her of everything she had with a knife and then her car. She worked hard for all that she had and when ANYBODY tried to take it from her, it was personal. She was a manager at her job, paid bills, was in softball, track, and volleyball, captain of the teams even!
Hearing her tell me that she saw herself in me made me so appreciative. I teared up, and choked out a 'really?' I'm so happy, so appreciative, so full of life right now, and I just wish I could pass this mood on to earth's population. It feels so good.
After more bad news from doctors ( STILL, after an entire year this is happening to me), I've spent all day crying. Even as I write this, my head pounds from thousands of lost tears. Maybe I'm dehydrated now from so much water loss, haha. Let it be known that I appreciate life. Even with everything I've been through. Even with everything I continue to struggle with. I won't lie, tears happen. It's not letting them get the best of you thats the big concern. I swear to you, no matter how bad things ever get... I will always find time in life to laugh. Jokes, laughter, and friends have been what it's taken to help me hold myself together lately. My mom stopped me today, and pointed out that she's noticed a lot of her in me just since I've started growing up. She told me I'm stronger than I realize, and that little things I do, or the way I make jokes about situations to lighten the mood is a quality she's noticed in me only recently. That is probably the highest compliment you can give me, a comparison to my mother.
To be 110% honest, I idol her. She is probably the hardest working woman you will ever meet. She's motivated, she's tough, she's sarcastic, she's HILARIOUS. She grew up with 3 brothers, and a father that beat the shit out of them if they did anything wrong. Moved out at 16, chased off a guy robbing her of everything she had with a knife and then her car. She worked hard for all that she had and when ANYBODY tried to take it from her, it was personal. She was a manager at her job, paid bills, was in softball, track, and volleyball, captain of the teams even!
Hearing her tell me that she saw herself in me made me so appreciative. I teared up, and choked out a 'really?' I'm so happy, so appreciative, so full of life right now, and I just wish I could pass this mood on to earth's population. It feels so good.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Don't leave just yet.
Post breakdown. Pre meditations. I got bunches of lights flickering on and off in my head. You turn me on. You turn me off. Is this meaningless tradition, or is this real? Stay for awhile longer, I haven't made my mind up yet…
Saturday, August 23, 2008
500 things I enjoy...
Justin challenged me to make a list of 500 things I enjoy. This list will be a work in progress on this blog until I reach 500. I don't want to rush through it, so I'll add on to it as ideas come to me.
1. EVERYTHING about fall. That would be possibly 50 right there if I listed them all seperately.
2. Glow Bowl at Woodside
3. Writing on giant calendars, and never really planning ahead, but marking memorable dates as they occur.
4. Leaving goodnight messages on my dad's dry erase board when he works late.
5. No Other Way by Jack Johnson. I melt EVERY time I hear it. Why is it that cute little songs like this capture my sentimental heart so often?
6. Staying up all night on the phone, falling asleep and practically whispering.
7. The ART of sarcasm
8. "Fall Into Me" by Emerson Drive. One day, I would love to randomly have that sung to me.
9. Meaningful song lyrics. "Hold on Hope"
10. Songs written for me!
11. The movie Major Payne. I forgot how much I loved it until last night.
12.Zoning out on long car rides and thinking about life
13. The kind of memories that while you look back at them, you can't help but smile.
14. Absolutely ridiculous dreams
15. Jon McLaughlin's face ;)
16. laughing uncontrollably
17. shopping for new bra's. I have no idea why, but that's always my favorite thing to shop for. I have some kind of fetish.
18. Fourwheeling with my family.
19. Rainy days spent sleeping and lounging.
20. Running through the rain.
21. Wendy's frosties.
22. The Montune at Busch Gardens.
23. Tennessee... Heaven on Earth.
24. Ripleys believe it or not haunted houses.
25.roadtrips
26. 4H camp
27. days spent with friends, 12 hours or longer.
28. writing
29. time capsules
30. being seen in Sunny D!
31. butterflies in my stomach
32. the color green.
33. the things kids say
34. california mornings when the fog rolls in. the air is so crisp that you can feel each breath in your lungs.
35. walking up and down the beach
36. new purses
37.spending all day in book stores
38. SunSplash water park
39. karaokee nights
40. boating
41. boys with guitars
42.bets made for bags of frosted animal crackers
43. TB games at the Raymond James stadium.
44. puzzles
45. strawberry lemonade
46. watching the sunset from the secret spot at the lake, or from the beach.
47.watching the sunrise
48. fishing
49. tubing
50. jetskiing
51. spending all night doing nothing but driving around town, wasting gas.
52.making sand castles and jumping on them once I finish
53. sliding down slides in my socks
54. jumping off swings
55. scarfs
56. big sentimental hearts
57. hopeless romantics
58. pontiac g5's
59. bummin' it.
60. daisies.. i love love love daisies.
61. the blue bubblegum popsicles that nobody else will eat.
62. being copy editior of the yearbook. journalism is where I will end up in life.
63. Reese peanut butter cups.
64. beach hair
65. pigs
66. banyan blvd.
67. big oak trees
68. tire swings
69. Gooze, the glow in the dark kind.
70.hide and seek
71. rootbeer a la mode. "rootbeer floats"
72. huge family parties
73. Christmas Eve, always.
74. Christmas trees covered in nothing but homemade ornaments.
75. mistletoe :)
76. faith
77. tattoos on guys
78. nose piercings.. i just think they are so damn adorable
79. compliments, make somebodys day.. give them a compliment.
80.rainbows after rainy days.
81. pinky promises
82. hurricane days
83. balloon boquets
84. kisses
85. street hockey
86. cute voicemails left on my phone :)
87. flip flops and painted toenails
88. Mrs. Doubtfire
89. Dierks Bentley
90. being a big sister
91. giving second chances
92. grilled cheese's and watermelon on summer days.
93. memories that make you tear up when looking back on them
94. grape soda
95. clever comebacks
96. sleepovers
97. peanut butter and jelly sandwiches
98. trampolines
99. slip and slides covered in chocolate syrup
100. bonfires
101. camping
102. paintballing
103.rope swings
104. jumping from rock to rock across the Tenn. creeks
105. rollerblading
106. ice skating
107. blue raspberry slurpees from 7-11
108. days spent entirely outside
109. mud fights
110. scooping up coquinas and sand fleas
111. making babies laugh.
112. being called "baby" or "babe"
113. cheesiness!
114. hockey games at Germain
115. volunteering
116. soaking up all the coldness in the sheets
117. concerts
118. concerts
119. kayaking
120. the giant glass cable car in Gatlinburg
121. snorkeling in the crystal blue waters of the Bahamas
122. anticipating seeing snow for the first time this December
123. daydreaming
124. stealing hearts
125. Twister, the game.
126. Sorry, my favorite board game.
127. Having something to look forward to.
128. Having a purpose in life.
129. filming/photography
130. learning new things
131. being able to to teach people new things
132. cold floors
133. hoodies
134. diamonds
135. when Jimmy says he's going to show up at my house with a heart shaped box of gummy worms because I can't have chocolate... makes me laugh everytime he says it.
136. learning about crimes
137. Alcatraz
138. fantasies ;)
139. being completely open
140. NO HESITATIONS
141. Jenga
142. Nesquick
143. strawberry banana smoothies, but only from Frullati
144. watching Jeff's basketball games
145. pride
146. CONFIDENCE
147. Crash Bandicoot on PS2
148. Super Smash Brothers on Gamecube
149. Wii Golf
150. Warheads
151. the beach
152.streaking
153. ADVENTURES
154. being naked
155. listening to Butter's stories.
156. Well thought out nicknames... i.e. Butter, Papa Bear, Skycheeks, Curly, Rotten, Nanner Nicole, etc.
157.flirting
158. being completely terrified of scary movies when i think back about them late at night
159. creeks
160. window seats
161. sleeping with my windows open
162. kisses on my forehead, one of my favorites.
163. strawberry ice cream
164. johnny knoxville
165. when guys wink instead of waving
166. pregnant women, they're so adorable.
167. those black and white pictures of little kids that are always dressed up, and there's always ONE object in the picture that's faintly in color.
168. smiles from random people
169. Chinese food and chopsticks. I can not use them to save my life.
170.Red painted front doors.
171. indoor slip and slides
172. dodging trouble on the daily
173. funky jewlery.. my favorite is my big plastic beaded bracelet that the kids from my cabin at camp made me.
174. watching john bury his sisters shoes in the park's sand 5 feet deep when she pisses him off
175. reading
176. blogging
177. dorky spiderman bandaids
178. cereal on Saturday mornings
179. stealing my brothers big basketball tshirts
180.southern accents on little kids.. it's the CUTEST thing.
181. late nights spent in the barn
182. the fair ride, the Zipper
183. growing up
184. making videos
185. the book, Tuesdays with Morrie. my ALL TIME FAVORITE book.
186. cocobutter on my sunburn
187. playing super mario karts in the mall
188. driving butter insane
189. shoeboxes of old photographs
190. face paintings
191. life lessons
192.
1. EVERYTHING about fall. That would be possibly 50 right there if I listed them all seperately.
2. Glow Bowl at Woodside
3. Writing on giant calendars, and never really planning ahead, but marking memorable dates as they occur.
4. Leaving goodnight messages on my dad's dry erase board when he works late.
5. No Other Way by Jack Johnson. I melt EVERY time I hear it. Why is it that cute little songs like this capture my sentimental heart so often?
6. Staying up all night on the phone, falling asleep and practically whispering.
7. The ART of sarcasm
8. "Fall Into Me" by Emerson Drive. One day, I would love to randomly have that sung to me.
9. Meaningful song lyrics. "Hold on Hope"
10. Songs written for me!
11. The movie Major Payne. I forgot how much I loved it until last night.
12.Zoning out on long car rides and thinking about life
13. The kind of memories that while you look back at them, you can't help but smile.
14. Absolutely ridiculous dreams
15. Jon McLaughlin's face ;)
16. laughing uncontrollably
17. shopping for new bra's. I have no idea why, but that's always my favorite thing to shop for. I have some kind of fetish.
18. Fourwheeling with my family.
19. Rainy days spent sleeping and lounging.
20. Running through the rain.
21. Wendy's frosties.
22. The Montune at Busch Gardens.
23. Tennessee... Heaven on Earth.
24. Ripleys believe it or not haunted houses.
25.roadtrips
26. 4H camp
27. days spent with friends, 12 hours or longer.
28. writing
29. time capsules
30. being seen in Sunny D!
31. butterflies in my stomach
32. the color green.
33. the things kids say
34. california mornings when the fog rolls in. the air is so crisp that you can feel each breath in your lungs.
35. walking up and down the beach
36. new purses
37.spending all day in book stores
38. SunSplash water park
39. karaokee nights
40. boating
41. boys with guitars
42.bets made for bags of frosted animal crackers
43. TB games at the Raymond James stadium.
44. puzzles
45. strawberry lemonade
46. watching the sunset from the secret spot at the lake, or from the beach.
47.watching the sunrise
48. fishing
49. tubing
50. jetskiing
51. spending all night doing nothing but driving around town, wasting gas.
52.making sand castles and jumping on them once I finish
53. sliding down slides in my socks
54. jumping off swings
55. scarfs
56. big sentimental hearts
57. hopeless romantics
58. pontiac g5's
59. bummin' it.
60. daisies.. i love love love daisies.
61. the blue bubblegum popsicles that nobody else will eat.
62. being copy editior of the yearbook. journalism is where I will end up in life.
63. Reese peanut butter cups.
64. beach hair
65. pigs
66. banyan blvd.
67. big oak trees
68. tire swings
69. Gooze, the glow in the dark kind.
70.hide and seek
71. rootbeer a la mode. "rootbeer floats"
72. huge family parties
73. Christmas Eve, always.
74. Christmas trees covered in nothing but homemade ornaments.
75. mistletoe :)
76. faith
77. tattoos on guys
78. nose piercings.. i just think they are so damn adorable
79. compliments, make somebodys day.. give them a compliment.
80.rainbows after rainy days.
81. pinky promises
82. hurricane days
83. balloon boquets
84. kisses
85. street hockey
86. cute voicemails left on my phone :)
87. flip flops and painted toenails
88. Mrs. Doubtfire
89. Dierks Bentley
90. being a big sister
91. giving second chances
92. grilled cheese's and watermelon on summer days.
93. memories that make you tear up when looking back on them
94. grape soda
95. clever comebacks
96. sleepovers
97. peanut butter and jelly sandwiches
98. trampolines
99. slip and slides covered in chocolate syrup
100. bonfires
101. camping
102. paintballing
103.rope swings
104. jumping from rock to rock across the Tenn. creeks
105. rollerblading
106. ice skating
107. blue raspberry slurpees from 7-11
108. days spent entirely outside
109. mud fights
110. scooping up coquinas and sand fleas
111. making babies laugh.
112. being called "baby" or "babe"
113. cheesiness!
114. hockey games at Germain
115. volunteering
116. soaking up all the coldness in the sheets
117. concerts
118. concerts
119. kayaking
120. the giant glass cable car in Gatlinburg
121. snorkeling in the crystal blue waters of the Bahamas
122. anticipating seeing snow for the first time this December
123. daydreaming
124. stealing hearts
125. Twister, the game.
126. Sorry, my favorite board game.
127. Having something to look forward to.
128. Having a purpose in life.
129. filming/photography
130. learning new things
131. being able to to teach people new things
132. cold floors
133. hoodies
134. diamonds
135. when Jimmy says he's going to show up at my house with a heart shaped box of gummy worms because I can't have chocolate... makes me laugh everytime he says it.
136. learning about crimes
137. Alcatraz
138. fantasies ;)
139. being completely open
140. NO HESITATIONS
141. Jenga
142. Nesquick
143. strawberry banana smoothies, but only from Frullati
144. watching Jeff's basketball games
145. pride
146. CONFIDENCE
147. Crash Bandicoot on PS2
148. Super Smash Brothers on Gamecube
149. Wii Golf
150. Warheads
151. the beach
152.streaking
153. ADVENTURES
154. being naked
155. listening to Butter's stories.
156. Well thought out nicknames... i.e. Butter, Papa Bear, Skycheeks, Curly, Rotten, Nanner Nicole, etc.
157.flirting
158. being completely terrified of scary movies when i think back about them late at night
159. creeks
160. window seats
161. sleeping with my windows open
162. kisses on my forehead, one of my favorites.
163. strawberry ice cream
164. johnny knoxville
165. when guys wink instead of waving
166. pregnant women, they're so adorable.
167. those black and white pictures of little kids that are always dressed up, and there's always ONE object in the picture that's faintly in color.
168. smiles from random people
169. Chinese food and chopsticks. I can not use them to save my life.
170.Red painted front doors.
171. indoor slip and slides
172. dodging trouble on the daily
173. funky jewlery.. my favorite is my big plastic beaded bracelet that the kids from my cabin at camp made me.
174. watching john bury his sisters shoes in the park's sand 5 feet deep when she pisses him off
175. reading
176. blogging
177. dorky spiderman bandaids
178. cereal on Saturday mornings
179. stealing my brothers big basketball tshirts
180.southern accents on little kids.. it's the CUTEST thing.
181. late nights spent in the barn
182. the fair ride, the Zipper
183. growing up
184. making videos
185. the book, Tuesdays with Morrie. my ALL TIME FAVORITE book.
186. cocobutter on my sunburn
187. playing super mario karts in the mall
188. driving butter insane
189. shoeboxes of old photographs
190. face paintings
191. life lessons
192.
Justin wrote this for me:
"ive been thinking alot and it will be a long time before i can convert this into a song that you can hear :(
so ill give you the lyrics that way you can know at this moment and not in the future when im done with it what im feeling.
enjoy :D
A proud man looked and once told me.
son wait around and you will see.
a girl will come and take you by storm
she will make you stumble more and more.
you will end up writing all these songs.
cause in your heart you know that she belongs.
so go to her with this and sing
make her blush and cry at the scene.
(chorus)
here is this girl that i know
i cant explain why im writing this.
over and over im in bliss.
looking forward to that one faithful kiss.
i dont know how it came to be
dont ask we will see
i know its a prayer from above
im accidentally in love.
her endless smile makes my heart melt.
the charm she has over me is like a spell.
lets gaze at the moon without a care.
forever and ever with you ill share.
with that moonshine reflect off your eyes
i swear to you ill remember this night.
so baby keep on smiling.
cause with that the sun theres always shining.
(chorus)
here is this girl that i know
i cant explain why im writing this.
over and over im in bliss.
looking forward to that one faithful kiss.
i dont know how it came to be
so lets sit tight and wait and see
i know its a prayer from above
im accidently in love
so rest your head without a care
no guilt, no worries to bare
you know what to say to make me blush
i can only hope this is more then a crush
maybe im wrong maybe im right.
i don know until your by my side
and me singing this melody
god is being good to me
(chorus)
here is this girl that i know
i cant explain why im writing this.
over and over im in bliss.
looking forward to that one faithful kiss.
i dont know how it came to be
so lets sit tight and wait and see
i know its a prayer from above
im accidently in love
so now i close with a note.
this is what i will remember most.
you are a special girl
that forever and ever...
will be my world."
♥ Never in my life have I had a song written about me until now.
so ill give you the lyrics that way you can know at this moment and not in the future when im done with it what im feeling.
enjoy :D
A proud man looked and once told me.
son wait around and you will see.
a girl will come and take you by storm
she will make you stumble more and more.
you will end up writing all these songs.
cause in your heart you know that she belongs.
so go to her with this and sing
make her blush and cry at the scene.
(chorus)
here is this girl that i know
i cant explain why im writing this.
over and over im in bliss.
looking forward to that one faithful kiss.
i dont know how it came to be
dont ask we will see
i know its a prayer from above
im accidentally in love.
her endless smile makes my heart melt.
the charm she has over me is like a spell.
lets gaze at the moon without a care.
forever and ever with you ill share.
with that moonshine reflect off your eyes
i swear to you ill remember this night.
so baby keep on smiling.
cause with that the sun theres always shining.
(chorus)
here is this girl that i know
i cant explain why im writing this.
over and over im in bliss.
looking forward to that one faithful kiss.
i dont know how it came to be
so lets sit tight and wait and see
i know its a prayer from above
im accidently in love
so rest your head without a care
no guilt, no worries to bare
you know what to say to make me blush
i can only hope this is more then a crush
maybe im wrong maybe im right.
i don know until your by my side
and me singing this melody
god is being good to me
(chorus)
here is this girl that i know
i cant explain why im writing this.
over and over im in bliss.
looking forward to that one faithful kiss.
i dont know how it came to be
so lets sit tight and wait and see
i know its a prayer from above
im accidently in love
so now i close with a note.
this is what i will remember most.
you are a special girl
that forever and ever...
will be my world."
♥ Never in my life have I had a song written about me until now.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
I'm not afraid of waiting.
My mom and I were talking about my taste in guys the other day. She told me she doesn't think I know what I want. psh, I know exactly what i want...
somebody who
* respects my morals and independence
* truly loves God
* will make me cry from laughter
* has a good relationship with his family and will respect mine as well.
* no compulsive liars or cheaters
* also understands how much I love life and love the outlook i have on it, and what I get out of it.
* knows what they want in life
* enjoys spending time outside - fourwheeling, fishing, tubing, etc.
* someone that can teach me new things
* enjoys traveling
* hopeless romantic
* likes going out as much as he likes sitting home too
* honestly cares for me
* I CAN BE WEIRD AROUND. I want to be absolutely myself and not have to hold back a damn thing.
* that can understand my weird views on love. I wouldn't say I'm
somebody who
* respects my morals and independence
* truly loves God
* will make me cry from laughter
* has a good relationship with his family and will respect mine as well.
* no compulsive liars or cheaters
* also understands how much I love life and love the outlook i have on it, and what I get out of it.
* knows what they want in life
* enjoys spending time outside - fourwheeling, fishing, tubing, etc.
* someone that can teach me new things
* enjoys traveling
* hopeless romantic
* likes going out as much as he likes sitting home too
* honestly cares for me
* I CAN BE WEIRD AROUND. I want to be absolutely myself and not have to hold back a damn thing.
* that can understand my weird views on love. I wouldn't say I'm
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Know what you want out of life.. always.
***** names taken out for privacy reasons.
fins4life7 (2:13:52 AM): i got something i want to admit you...
kneecolee 92 (2:14:34 AM): okay
kneecolee 92 (2:14:42 AM): shoot
fins4life7 (2:18:00 AM): awhile back there was a period were me and you lost touch and i was thinking to myself "my god i miss this girl" and i told ***** that. me and her were both missing you. she mentioned to me how youve changed and i believed it. i guess she spun my head to make me think you have when all along you were the same ol nikki with some changes and **** was the one that was going through some kind of revoultion lol
fins4life7 (2:18:09 AM): i just thought you should know that
fins4life7 (2:18:14 AM): and if it helps im sorry
kneecolee 92 (2:21:08 AM): that made me laugh. im not going to lie, i know ive changed. and in my opinion, it's for the better.. i happen to like who I'm growing up and becoming. I saw that ***** was slowly falling into a path I didnt approve of & figured her friendship was not the best for me. I didnt really mean to ditch her, i still love her to death, but i stopped spending a lot of time with her because even if it hurts like hell at the moment, im going to do whats best for me.
fins4life7 (2:22:09 AM): agreed.
fins4life7 (2:22:36 AM): damn are you sure your 16!? cause motherfucker you just sounded 30
fins4life7 (2:22:37 AM): lol
kneecolee 92 (2:23:50 AM): haha, I'm sure. I just know what I want out of life :)
fins4life7 (2:13:52 AM): i got something i want to admit you...
kneecolee 92 (2:14:34 AM): okay
kneecolee 92 (2:14:42 AM): shoot
fins4life7 (2:18:00 AM): awhile back there was a period were me and you lost touch and i was thinking to myself "my god i miss this girl" and i told ***** that. me and her were both missing you. she mentioned to me how youve changed and i believed it. i guess she spun my head to make me think you have when all along you were the same ol nikki with some changes and **** was the one that was going through some kind of revoultion lol
fins4life7 (2:18:09 AM): i just thought you should know that
fins4life7 (2:18:14 AM): and if it helps im sorry
kneecolee 92 (2:21:08 AM): that made me laugh. im not going to lie, i know ive changed. and in my opinion, it's for the better.. i happen to like who I'm growing up and becoming. I saw that ***** was slowly falling into a path I didnt approve of & figured her friendship was not the best for me. I didnt really mean to ditch her, i still love her to death, but i stopped spending a lot of time with her because even if it hurts like hell at the moment, im going to do whats best for me.
fins4life7 (2:22:09 AM): agreed.
fins4life7 (2:22:36 AM): damn are you sure your 16!? cause motherfucker you just sounded 30
fins4life7 (2:22:37 AM): lol
kneecolee 92 (2:23:50 AM): haha, I'm sure. I just know what I want out of life :)
Adventure is an everlasting longing.
"no big deal.. you gave me a soda, leave it to me to at least change your life forever."
Both yesterday and today gave me a taste of how I imagined this summer would feel... driving around all night long, with the windows down and the music blaring, nowhere to go and all day to get there. Chris and I, both anxious to get out of our houses, couldn't think of anything to do so we ended up just wandering around Naples last night. I took him down 5th avenue because he'd never seen that side of town before, and we stopped by Cambier Park to swing on my favorite tire swing. He doesn't do very well with tire swings, we found out. We left there to catch the sunset at the pier... it was fun, especially with the whole "Day After Tomorrow disaster" feel. The sky all orange, the waters rough, and a storm heading in. It started to rain eventually so Chris volunteered to run and go get the car. He picked me up at the turn around and I slid into the passenger seat, letting him drive around town the rest of the night, even without a license. It was the adventure I had been looking all week for. We drove from one side of town to the other and back... wasting gas and having one hell of a time doing it. Without a doubt the top 3 events of the entire night were..
1.Chris passing up EIGHT turnarounds just to make a U-turn at the light. We ended up going 20 minutes in the wrong direction, and everytime Chris missed another opportunity to turn, I'd just point at it and crack up as he told me to shut up.
2. "Right, no left.. wait, no maybe right.. no I was right before." -C
"So it's right?!" -N
"NO, I said I was right, it's left." -C
3.( while talking about my car's gas tank) "Your side, no my side.. shit, no wait.. it is your side." -N
"damn it, i'm confused, which side is it?" -C
"my side, that was just for the confusion with the left turn earlier!" -N
We ended up back meeting up with Gaby, and all coming back to my house to play pool.
Racquel loves the chocolate muffins my mom occasionally buys so I saved one for her.
Chris ate half of it, and the 2 boys dropped the other half off at her house.
She made sure she told me how anxious she was to indulge in that muffin, haha.
Today, I was awaken by a phone call from Katie. She headed over, and picked me up and we went to the beach.
I don't even know how to put those amazing 4 hours into words. We laughed, we hummed to each other, we screamed... well, I did.
But I had every reason to. I was pinched by a massive crab and had to shake my foot violently to free it of it's grip.
I'd bet the rest of the people on the beach thought I was being eaten by the shark the way I was kicking and screaming. I hate to admit, I actually almost drowned because I refused to put my feet back down after that.
Then, on the way home, we stopped by Taco Bell. Katie ordered a thing of nachos for the ducks. She sat on the curb, feeding one lonely duck. Within minutes, 30 or so ducks surrounded her.. flying from nearby parking spaces, swimming rapidly across the lake. It's as if she was Snow White, calling on all her animal friends.
I've never laughed harder.
I love my best friend.
A bunch more happened through out the day. Mostly, I just feel like a badass with the windows of my car down, and my new CD as loud as possible.. driving down the street, wind whipping through my hair, boys in trucks
Both yesterday and today gave me a taste of how I imagined this summer would feel... driving around all night long, with the windows down and the music blaring, nowhere to go and all day to get there. Chris and I, both anxious to get out of our houses, couldn't think of anything to do so we ended up just wandering around Naples last night. I took him down 5th avenue because he'd never seen that side of town before, and we stopped by Cambier Park to swing on my favorite tire swing. He doesn't do very well with tire swings, we found out. We left there to catch the sunset at the pier... it was fun, especially with the whole "Day After Tomorrow disaster" feel. The sky all orange, the waters rough, and a storm heading in. It started to rain eventually so Chris volunteered to run and go get the car. He picked me up at the turn around and I slid into the passenger seat, letting him drive around town the rest of the night, even without a license. It was the adventure I had been looking all week for. We drove from one side of town to the other and back... wasting gas and having one hell of a time doing it. Without a doubt the top 3 events of the entire night were..
1.Chris passing up EIGHT turnarounds just to make a U-turn at the light. We ended up going 20 minutes in the wrong direction, and everytime Chris missed another opportunity to turn, I'd just point at it and crack up as he told me to shut up.
2. "Right, no left.. wait, no maybe right.. no I was right before." -C
"So it's right?!" -N
"NO, I said I was right, it's left." -C
3.( while talking about my car's gas tank) "Your side, no my side.. shit, no wait.. it is your side." -N
"damn it, i'm confused, which side is it?" -C
"my side, that was just for the confusion with the left turn earlier!" -N
We ended up back meeting up with Gaby, and all coming back to my house to play pool.
Racquel loves the chocolate muffins my mom occasionally buys so I saved one for her.
Chris ate half of it, and the 2 boys dropped the other half off at her house.
She made sure she told me how anxious she was to indulge in that muffin, haha.
Today, I was awaken by a phone call from Katie. She headed over, and picked me up and we went to the beach.
I don't even know how to put those amazing 4 hours into words. We laughed, we hummed to each other, we screamed... well, I did.
But I had every reason to. I was pinched by a massive crab and had to shake my foot violently to free it of it's grip.
I'd bet the rest of the people on the beach thought I was being eaten by the shark the way I was kicking and screaming. I hate to admit, I actually almost drowned because I refused to put my feet back down after that.
Then, on the way home, we stopped by Taco Bell. Katie ordered a thing of nachos for the ducks. She sat on the curb, feeding one lonely duck. Within minutes, 30 or so ducks surrounded her.. flying from nearby parking spaces, swimming rapidly across the lake. It's as if she was Snow White, calling on all her animal friends.
I've never laughed harder.
I love my best friend.
A bunch more happened through out the day. Mostly, I just feel like a badass with the windows of my car down, and my new CD as loud as possible.. driving down the street, wind whipping through my hair, boys in trucks
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
@ the doctors office this morning..
"Other than your chronic disease, you're perfectly healthy."
It's amazing the things I can find entertaining.
It's amazing the things I can find entertaining.
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Saturday, August 9, 2008
Tonight was spent obsessing over guys singing songs for girls.
( about a hawaiian song played on a uke...)
fins4life7 (2:12:04 AM): he sings this awesome song and like after the first time i saw it i was like "wow" when it was done but not you cause your awesome and was like "that part at the end were he scratches his foot made me laugh"
then there's this one,
my heart melted when i watched this, sweet mother earth.. find me a boy like this!
...preferably a little bit older though.
Post Script.. I just thought this was funny.
fins4life7 (7:40:40 PM): that makes me want to jump around like a school boy bitch
fins4life7 (2:12:04 AM): he sings this awesome song and like after the first time i saw it i was like "wow" when it was done but not you cause your awesome and was like "that part at the end were he scratches his foot made me laugh"
then there's this one,
my heart melted when i watched this, sweet mother earth.. find me a boy like this!
...preferably a little bit older though.
Post Script.. I just thought this was funny.
fins4life7 (7:40:40 PM): that makes me want to jump around like a school boy bitch
Spending the day with my Rotten.
For more, Go to...
http://s319.photobucket.com/albums/mm460/N-Lynn/
http://s319.photobucket.com/albums/mm460/N-Lynn/
Monday, August 4, 2008
Souvenirs & Rekindling Bonds.
I forgot to mention, my dad bought me two shirts when he came back into town yesterday. While he was showing me, he held up the tanktop and set it on top of the tshirt and looked at it for a few seconds, and he turned to me and he goes.. i got this one to go underneath. It was the cutest thing, and the first time in a long time I felt appreciative of my dad. I'm sure you could look into my eyes and see the love growing in my heart.
I ♥ Moonshine
I wasn't having such a great night tonight so Justin made this for me. It's cute. It helps if you know that he calls me Moonshine.
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Ahh, what a day. I love life.
Another day spent laughing hysterically. I don't even want to admit how much time I've spent sitting here thinking how to explain this. I've come to realize that yes, it does sound funny, but not nearly as hilarious as it was when it happened. You'll just have to realize that you had to have been there because it all happened so quickly.
Out on the fourwheelers today Nati and I found some dunes. We climbed them, rolled down them, slid down them, jumped off of them, and had mud fights with the wet mud at the bottom. When we finally came back home we were COVERED in dirt, sand, and mud. Nati was sitting on the counter outside the shower while I was in it, listening to the radio and talking to me. I asked her to throw me a towel, and she threw me one that was too big so I popped my arms over the top of the shower bar to demonstrate the size I wanted. She reached up to get the towel I didn't want from me and as she grabbed it, then entire shower curtain rod dropped. I let out the most suprised scream I have ever heard. I could hardly believe it even came from myself. Nati agrees that she didn't even know I COULD scream like that. She whipped around, collapsing on the floor, crying from laughing so hard. After the first few seconds of initial shock I jumped on the ground, anxious to scoop up the shower curtain and wrap it around myself. I couldn't even hold it up around myself because I was laughing so hard.
Out on the fourwheelers today Nati and I found some dunes. We climbed them, rolled down them, slid down them, jumped off of them, and had mud fights with the wet mud at the bottom. When we finally came back home we were COVERED in dirt, sand, and mud. Nati was sitting on the counter outside the shower while I was in it, listening to the radio and talking to me. I asked her to throw me a towel, and she threw me one that was too big so I popped my arms over the top of the shower bar to demonstrate the size I wanted. She reached up to get the towel I didn't want from me and as she grabbed it, then entire shower curtain rod dropped. I let out the most suprised scream I have ever heard. I could hardly believe it even came from myself. Nati agrees that she didn't even know I COULD scream like that. She whipped around, collapsing on the floor, crying from laughing so hard. After the first few seconds of initial shock I jumped on the ground, anxious to scoop up the shower curtain and wrap it around myself. I couldn't even hold it up around myself because I was laughing so hard.
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