Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Tatum & I reporting for bed...

Have I even been able to mention Tatum, the newest addition to our family?!
It's been such a long time since I've curled up with my laptop and talked about everything going on here at the Merriam residence. Perhaps that's because there has been SO MUCH going on that there's never any time left over to write about it. Let's catch up!

Every dog that my family has ever had has been one that we've picked out. There's been Jack and Leroy, Samantha, Duke and Charlie, Luka and Rascal, and of course, our little Tanner. We fell in love with their tiny puppy features but then decided that they weren't the right dogs for us by the time they had stopped growing. (All with the exception of Tanner, the chihuahua. He's not the best dog, but he won my Momma's heart early on with his tiny stature and big attitude.)It's not something I'm eager to admit, and memories of leaving so many dogs behind at animal shelters or with new families now stirs up guilt within me. The difference with Tatum, however, was that SHE picked US.




Tatum used to belong to a guy that lived just down the road from us. We suspect that he didn't treat her very well because she was consistently escaping from his yard and hanging out in ours. She was always especially thin, and when we set out food and water she would lick both bowls clean within only a couple of minutes. Her owner would walk down the street calling her name, "Red," and when he finally found her and reached down to scoop her up, she would first cower, and then growl baring her sharp teeth. It was the only "violent" act we ever saw from her... she was usually just a playful puppy, eager to coat you in kisses.
My family soon began calling her "Big T" because she looked so much like our Tanner. Same markings, same body frame (just much larger), and the same characteristic ears. Dad loved to bring her inside and slip her treats. I snuck her inside more than a few times when I was home alone. She took rides across town with me to run errands. Mom fed her almost every day. And she really won all of our hearts over.
About two months ago, a cold snap came through and Tatum came down to sleep in our garage for a few nights rather than her cold, damp backyard at home. On the third night of the cold snap, my parents went to one of their weekly bible studies and my brother and I were both at work. Coming and going and seeing Big T inbetween was routine for us and we learned never to be expecting her presence when we returned home. I don't think we ever prepared ourselves to find her frantic, soaked in blood and convulsing, however.
Mom took a towel from in the house and wrapped her in it, holding her close to calm her down. Dad assessed the situation... blood splattered across our driveway, dripping from the garage door, in puddles on the garage floor. And then realizing they had no idea where to find her real owner, and not even 100% sure that he hadn't been the one to do this to her, they made the decision to call Animal Control. That night a man came and got her. She cried at having to leave us, and barked, growled, even tried to bite the man that dared take her away from the only love she'd ever known. Her aggressive behavior landed her with a large, bold notice on her 'solitary confinement' cage back at the shelter. Her owners had one week to claim her before she underwent a behavioral examination and ultimately went for adoption. Either that, or be put to sleep if she failed her behavioral examination. A week went by and as my family dropped by the shelter to check up on her, she had made little progress. Her owners had not called, either. My mom advised that the professionals there address her by "Big T" rather than "Red" and it was only a matter of hours before they called our house to tell us of the change they had seen in her. Two days later, she passed her behavioral examination, was put up for adoption, and then came home to a family that very much adores her :)

Found this tonight in an old diary of mine...

"Last night involved a collaboration of hot, happy tears, the most genuine smile I've ever known, and a heart-felt joy unlike anything my soul has experienced.
At 11:11, I prayed for God to show me whether or not Justin was the one I was meant to spend the rest of my life with. I can't tell you exactly why I made such a request, and I can't tell you what I really expected to happen either.
It couldn't have been any longer than a half hour later that Justin came through my bedroom door and woke me up with a soft kiss on the forehead. He climbed into bed beside me and gently lifted my head from the pillow and onto his shoulder. I struggled to keep my eyes open as I listened to the steady beating of his heart, but they never managed to stay open for more than a few seconds before falling shut again. He laughed, told me I was the cutest thing, and ran his fingers through my hair.
As my drowsy stupor began to wear off, I looked Justin in the eyes. A strong hand held my cheek as delicately as possible and he kissed me softly upon the lips.
I have never been this in love. I told him that. I told him of my 11:11 wish, and we laid, noses touching, nothing held back. He told me that he loved me with everything that he had then began to kiss me, and I became so overwhelmed with emotion that my eyes stung with tears.
Taking my face into his hands once more, Justin used his thumbs to wipe away the hot tears rolling down my flushed cheeks. A smile from as deep as my own soul surfaced and it seemed as though I could not have suppressed it if I tried. I have never been that truly happy before. I wondered if he could see that this smile was unlike any other I've ever had. I felt as if I were glowing. I felt as if everything was the way it should be.
With adoring eyes, I watched him study me. No words were exchanged, only the understanding that two lovers' eyes can share. Finally, a smile spread across his face as well.
"What?" It was all I could manage to whisper with a smile so big.
"You're just....you're beautiful."
It was the perfect thing to say. I laid my head back onto his chest and observed a much faster rhythm than I had before. I closed my eyes and thanked God for answering my prayers. I knew Justin was it.. my best friend... my soulmate."

Monday, February 21, 2011

Ain't that the way it goes? Always stumbling into something...

Monday, February 7, 2011

I'm not as naive or as sheltered as you think I am. So stop thinking you can treat me this way.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Renovations!

Decided that "Carpe Diem" was becoming outdated... I have had this blog since my sophomore year of high school, after all. Hope all you old CD fans can still find me.

"Swimmin' In Sunshine!" .... It just fits lately :)

2010, all summed up.

A picture update of my experiences and accomplishments this past year...









Went to Grad Bash 2010 at Universal Studios with the most amazing friends. Saw Sean Kingston in concert there, as well. Easily the best night of my life.









Discovered my artistic ability.











Attended my first Masquerade, without a mask. Prom 2010.







Graduated high school with honors.













Celebrated my graduation with the ones that I love most: my family and closest friends.









Went sea-kayaking through the San Juan Islands in Washington state.






Quit my job.... Then quit my new job and went back to my old job.





Commemorated my 2nd anniversary with the man I love!







Became a MACY's Thanksgiving Day Parade Certified Balloon Handler.











And kept things interesting....ALWAYS.